Somewhere in this world full of chaos, but breathtakingly beautiful there used to be my own Ravishing, delightful and beauteous world. A world of two, A beautiful me and a beautiful you. Days used to start by thanking God for the presence of such a beautiful soul in my barren world and the splendid flashback of adorable moments at the night gave a beautiful end to my day.
We used to live in our own world, a world of Love, Caring, Affection and lots of Cuddle. Never thinking about others, overjoyed in our self. She was like“Log humare baare me kya sochte hai, agar ye bhi hum hi sochenge to phir log kya sochenge”( What people think about us, If we only think what people will think, then what people will think) .
It seemed like “Real Life main bhi Do Negatives Positive ban-ne ja rahe the” (In real life, two Negatives are going to be Positive). We used to plan for our future, a bright beautiful future. Hand in hand we decided to be the supporting hand of each other for the rest of our life. It was like heaven whenever we used to spend our time together. I promised her i will never leave her hand in any circumstance.
As everything fades through time, so does the love. She started thinking that we are living in a Paracosm (an imaginary world), the real world is totally different from their world. But the more she started knowing the world the more she got into the trap of Life. She started losing faith in me, she started finding me incapable of living in the real word and never did she know that I was the one who kept her away from this fake, false and cruel world, just because I never wanted her to get in this Trap and then the Maturity stole the innocence from her.
And one fine day she left, she left me…
She sacrificed her love, she sacrificed me for her Dreams which she thought I am incapable off. Her dream was to get each and everything she point on. She wanted to be rich, so that she could full fill her needs and she didn’t find me worth it.
Breaking my heart wasn’t the only thing she did, she shattered my dreams and destroyed my world.
Akela toh kabhi raha hi nahi par akelapan kya hota hai mujhe tab pata chala.
(I was never alone, but then I realized what loneliness is )
Roshni toh kabhi thi hi nahi par andhera kya hota hai tab pata chala.
(I experienced the darkness in my life )
She made me feel worthless, unloved, unwanted. I can’t even express in a simple word how worthless you made me feel. Because of that because of all the pain you’re putting me through; I am going to make it my personal goal to try to make sure that no one feels I am worthless. Her dreams seem to be much bigger in front our love. She would never mind sacrificing the love to fulfill her dreams, she did the same and she left. She never thought that she herself was a dream to me.
My Soul mate she has been murdered, her dreams, her ego, her situation they killed her. She is not in this world anymore; her soul has been preserved in heaven. I can now just feel her presence, I can only memorize her smile, I can only memorize our love, the love we used to share, the way she used to care. The smell of her hair, the taste of her lips, the feeling of her skin seemed to have got inside me or into the air all around me. The wind has become my friend it brings me the smell of her hair.
Yes her heartless body is still alive but her soul has been preserved in the heaven, the one which is present here is just a heartless body who never care about the one who was just here to be with her, to love her. Now she is just a lifeless soul who just thinks about herself and her dreams she never thought of my dream, she never thought even once that she was my Dream.
One day your heartless body will also think
“ WOH MERE KAABIL THA YA MERE KABIL NAHI ”.
Soulmate tu sun rahi hai na,
Pata nahi kaise hath choot gaya…